Nah, I'm independent and don't belong to any group. You're seeing things that aren't there and can't comprehend that a neutral is telling you how he sees things. So instead it's a conspiracy: In your mind I'm an alt and on their side. In reality i'm on my side, observing and opportunistic.
I can predict, with 99% accuracy, that you will eventually lose it again and get another ban.
You will subconsciously acknowledge your issues, but keep compensating on the outside, because you can't get your mind to reflect on your actions and what they caused to happen. You will try again, because you actually want to belong here as well, because you're feeling lonely and just want friends, but you're incapable of letting the past go (indicated by your regular mentioning of it), which means you're doomed to repeat your mistakes until you start acknowledging that your behaviour might not be the best way to behave, despite your brain telling you differently.
I wish you the best. No sarcasm.