I would not rule out nullsec. If you can find either a portion of space that is well defended by a group, or one that’s remote and quiet, nullsec can be be very relaxing and slow. Good enough for ratting and mining and the occasional blobby fleet where you get so lost in the havoc that your mistakes aren’t really noticed.
If you want to learn pvp, on the other hand, I offer mentorship and train faction warfare pilots in the Gallente militia and many of them have been alphas. If you’re interested in something like that and facing your fears, come look us up. If you learn it will be a nice breakthrough. If not, it’s not a big deal, but I haven’t met a pilot I wasn’t able to improve yet.
My recruitment add is below.