Last night, I had a dream.
I was standing over a valley; it was barren and dry, rocks and sand. In the valley were people, thousands of them, some I could not make out their face. Some faces I could make out. Standing nearest to me was Mako, an old comrade who had died on Caldari Prime. Slowly, I realized they were all men and women that had died under my command.
All of their lives I had spent in pursuit of victory, on ground or in space. Some of them I had knowingly sent to their deaths. Others I could not save. All of them stretched out their hand towards me, as if bidding me to come down from my perch and join them in the valley.
Before I could move an explosion sounded from far away, and I saw a dam crumble. The reservoir wasn’t filled with water, but with blood. The blood flowed through the rubble and started to rush towards the men and women in a giant wave.
I tried to go down to save them. I had just gotten to Mako, my dear friend Mako, when the blood wave crashed over us. Her hand slipped from mine in the crash of the waves. I tried to swim towards her, but the blood, so much blood carried me away.
Through the blood I swam, seeing no one else floating in the red river, back to my perch where I stood before. Wanting to save them, I dived in, but a great wave came and pushed me back. Again, I tried, but again a wave came and pushed me back. For a whole day and night I tried to dive into the blood to save someone, but every time, I was pushed back.
My initial thought was that I should not read certain Scriptures before bed. My second though was wondering if we are infringing upon God’s realm. Immortality is His domain, after all.