That was a huge wall of text, Honestly I wont spend a lot of time trying to convince you to come back, you should come back with a mindset for fun.
That being said I have been playing off and on since 2004 and I can tell you that Reload This. Has been the most enjoyable experience I have had in this game. Were currently rebuilding our roster and I think you should give us a shot.
Good luck wherever you land, P.S. were heavy US EST.