We apologize for the length of our response to the article, but the months of cryopreservation leave us susceptible to long intervals of thought. Nothing travels quickly at 77 degrees Kelvin, not the liquids which make us that are no better than frozen streams, nor our limbs which lie as still as corpses. Though, if any thoughts remain, the near-absolute-zero neural wireways relay their electrical impulses perfectly with no resistance… so our thoughts echo in our cryo-casket, refusing to lie still and be quiet.
Is religion a product of some deviation in the brain? Certainly we could argue that Heretics appear to be suffering some dementia or mental defect. What else could explain such aberrancy?
As a convert, we have often grappled with the question of whether our turn of Faith was an act of Free Will, or the result of a neurochemical process we have no control over. When we were a slave, a chip in our brain had experienced some deterioration in its power generation circuit which used our bioactivity as a source. The chip’s power had become unstable, and the instability made it unpredictable.
Often it would function as designed. It would smooth out the harsh edges of defiance, and anger, and self-destructiveness and alter these negatives to redirect them into the wholesome pleasure of physical labor. Sometimes the circuit would surge and the device transmitted tidals of pain. Somtimes the pain would be enough that we would want to end our own life to escape it. Is suicide a choice? God believes that it is.
If we chose God and chose to convert to the Amarr Faith, did the chip in our brain contribute to that choice? Did we make the choice to ease the pain of the whip and the rod? Did we make this choice as an act of Acceptance, in betrayal of Hope? Were we coerced, so as to say that the choice was made for us by another? When we flood our brain with C3, which some Capsuleers do, does the resulting partitioning and heightened neurofunction deprive us of the essence of who we are, and do we make different choices than we might with a clear head?
We have pondered such questions in the silence of our cryo-casket and we are left only to conclude that Faith is a choice. Pain does not buy us conviction. We may say that we will do anything to be rid of pain, but is Faith the product of a bargain? Bargains start fading the moment they are struck. Faith survives even death itself. Fear does not build a path to salvation. Under the influence, we could make rash decisions with dire consequences, but we would never remain with these choices once sober.
If there was truly a brain defect which could explain our Faith, then how does Faith take so specific a form? Defects are random, and randomness is the seed of chaos. Faith is the opposite of chaos. Faith is order, and core beliefs, and dedication, and structure.
If one is to attribute Heresy to a brain defect, then it removes the element of Free Will which is the core characteristic of Faith. A brain defect would absolve the Sani Sabik of responsibility for their actions. The killing of Sani Sabik could potentially be considered a crime, if it could be argued they are mentally ill. Blood Raiders commit psychotic acts, but are all psychotic acts commited by Blood Raiders? Whether you like it or not, even their Heretical Faith takes a specific form, with specific prescriptions for salvation, rituals, prayer, and so on.
Take it from a person of Faith. Our choice for salvation is neither coerced, nor the product of random defects in the brain. Faith is a conscious choice, for which the person is fully responsible. Take comfort in our conclusion as you put a Blood Raider ship in your crosshairs. You are not attacking the mentally ill. Far from it.