If the problem is “lack of direction”, there is only one solution: attach yourself to a group and use their goals and organized events as “direction” for your character.
Story-time: Long ago in this 5000-star section of a galaxy, there were only established alliances, with difficult recruitment restrictions, fighting it out in 0.0 space. Then one day a group formed, Brave Newbies, just to show they could take up space in 0.0 and fight the large alliances. And they really made a name for themselves; it was so outrageous and unexpected that all the news websites and Reddit cheered them on. The story isn’t a fairy tale; they ended up crashing against the capital ships and combat expertise of an established alliance, but they persevered and they survived to the present time, where they now have capitals of their own and are claiming space out there. And what’s important is that they demonstrated the worth of newbies, to the point that every single 0.0 alliance has an Alphas or newbies group, that they fund with free ships, free skills, and free ISK, from the vast coffers of the alliance itself, and all the newbie has to do is show up, be cute, and participate in the fun.
It’s a recruiting mechanism, and it’s also a mentor / training program, and every single alliance has it because it’s effective. So, look for these newbie corps; Pandemic Horde, Karma Fleet, Brave Collective are the big names that I remember off-hand, but there are others, perhaps associated with smaller corps, maybe lowsec or wormhole corps, that still cater to Alphas or newbie Omegas. Use the tools the game provides; search the Corp app in-game and use the filters to select newbie or alpha-friendly corps, search the recruitment forums here, as what you can do on Reddit, google it, etc.
You have an Alpha account; in a way it’s a throw-away. USE it, join one of these corps, see if you find the fun. It’ll be surprisingly awesome when you find it.