I didn’t join SFRIM with very high hopes for myself or very high thoughts about the Amarr religion. I was accepted as a Perigrinans – a traveler, visitor. Transient in its very conceptualization, just as I’ve spent the rest of my time in the heavens. Most concepts and ideas have adopted a similar pattern, wavering in and out with slowness and situational context. However, faith is a concept that I’ve found to be much more sudden than most in how it approaches one’s life. Most things of such magnitude require years, decades, a lifetime of consideration and thought for one to think they have the concept figured out. However, faith can come in a day, hour, second… or an instant.
Isolation was something I used to see as a punishment for wrongdoing, a means of making someone suffer in silence. I have since come to learn that isolation, while it can be at times torturous, is at the same time one of the greatest blessings that a person can experience. There is a feeling of holy order as a mining laser buzzes, as a reprocessing facility bashes rocks with chaos to a beat, as a reactor gently hums and bubbles. In it all is still the core activity of creating value, but I have realized that there is also the ability to create spiritual value alongside economic value in one’s activities.
Many Gallente brothers and sisters would see me as a traitor for joining SFRIM – indeed, one has already expressed their disappointment with me over it. To you, sibling of la Patrie , I hope you can understand why I chose to make this journey.
I would like to openly state that I would still not call myself someone of the Faith itself, but someone of faith in inner peace. I have been living by a maxim for the past weeks in SFRIM, one that has been transformative to my worldview. It’s reminded me that the world isn’t quite as bad as it might look, or at least that one doesn’t have to look at it as a collection of negativity all the time.
Ad Fidem Ex Industria – To faith, through work.