A) No.
B) Because I’m terrible at it.
Yes, there’s a period of learning and growth involved. I know that, and that’s not the difficult part. There’s just something disheartening about always being the one blown up or the one running away. It feels like there’s an insurmountable climb between me and everyone in space who’s been doing this longer and is so much better at it. It makes me feel very, very small.
Bonus: Maybe it’s the thrill of outmaneuvering an opponent. Maybe it’s the adrenaline from the ship engaging an enemy. Maybe it’s the gamble. As long as it’s not the corpses produced by the act, there’s nothing wrong with enjoying combat.