These past 100 replys were good, but I think they just like to see things blow up.
Itās simple. If you get ganked, you deserved it. Thereās no point telling these so-called capsuleers how to pilot their ships. If they canāt figure it out on their own, they arenāt worthy of that title.
How lovely, Iām so happy you are in a minority with that type of thinking
āYou will find I am a part of the silent majority. Those who sit in the shadows making decisions without the need of seeking validation or approval in these interstellar messaging boards. We are the ones who bring Order (and disorder as needed) to the systems of New Eden. The unelected government that transgresses faction borders. We were not given our place in the world. We carved it ourselvesā
We have shadow sitters too, but what makes stuff happen are people like me and my cohorts , people that actually do stuff. One step at a time
OH NO THEY HAVE SHADOW SITTERS OH NOOOOOO
you are clearly an psychopath. you should intern yourself in!
So I actually grew up in a cult irl. It took a lot for me to recognize it as such, but I figured it out around age 12. Itās doable, though Aiko is hardly a cult leader
can you describe this cult for us?
Not really as it involves a lot of personal details, and politics and religion, both of which arenāt allowed on the forums, but suffice to say this cult was fairly extreme and Iām quite glad to be gone.
how did it make you feel when you realized it was a cult?
Sad. It made me reevaluate a lot of my friendships and relationships. It took about another decade for my parents to figure it out, in which time I was very miserable. I still have members of that group reach out to me and try to get me to come back, and I just have to ignore them. Leaving as soon as I could when I was 18 made things even more complicated as Iāve largely had to rebuild my life from scratch. I lost a lot of friends.
and what methods did you employ to deal with the sadness?
Admittedly unhealthy ones at first. A lot of drinking, some drug use too. And then I found therapy worked and so I did that. Itās been a good tool to use to deal with a lot of my baggage.
do you consider yourself fully healed now?
Iām going to be honest, I donāt think most things are ever that cut and dry. Trauma isnāt ever really tied up with a neat little bow. What you learn to do is identify the areas in which your trauma has affected the way that you view the world, and your corresponding behaviors, and try to fix them. Itās an ongoing process that never really ends, and requires self examination and intellectual honesty. Sometimes it requires external accountability partners. It really varies from person to person and trauma to trauma. I canāt say that my tools will work for anyone else, but I canāt say they wonāt. I just try to do the right thing, and try to examine my thoughts and actions and make sure theyāre coming from the right place.
and how would you describe yourself now? at what point do you find yourself now?
Healing I suppose. I just try to make sure Iām doing the right thing for the right reasons and make sure that so donāt try to live in a mediated reality (ie addictions). I just work and go to college.