Hello everyone,
I just wanted to write out my reflections here in the hope tha somebody reads this and can offer some friendly words of advice.
I have played Eve for years but funnily enough never been any good at it. I dont stick around, I get bored but something brings me back, more about that shortly.
I returned recently and I thought I would do something that I enjoy, hauling. So I brought my ships, my freighter and I skilled up (cost me a small fortune around 100 pounds worth of ISK).
I started earning some ISK and completed some high sec and low sec/null sec contracts. Then, yesterday the inevitable happened. I got too confident and ISK hungry. I flew too close to a Warp Bubble that I should have been more cautious about and got blown up. then shortly after I lost just over 3 Billion ISK trying to play the gankers at their own game and thought I could align and warp out quicker than them and take their money outside of a well known ganking station. Do not worry guys, this is my fault and I paid the price with my own money. But this got me thinking…
Why do you play this game? What do you wish to achieve? Why do you come back, then leave, come back etc.
This is the only game that I know of where losing stuff hurts. It hurts more than other games that I have played, and I have been playing games for 35 years including Eve in the early days. The thing is, I need focus, not ISK. What I need to do is to set myself up, decide what I want to do, and enjoy the game and not concentrate on earning ISK all of the time. Small ships, with small reward is fine, learn the game and expect to be learning long term before starting to benefit from financial rewards eventually.
I return to EVE becasue even after 20 years its still as beautiful as it ever was, I return to EVE because the players run the game, prices fluctuate, things change, you make stuff somebody buys it, people talk to you, people help you, people betray you its all about the community. That is what brings me back to this game time and time again.
I just wanted to put my thoughts out there as I am going to be watching a lot of videos and trying to focus and not focusing on earning lots of ISK and certainly not on buying PLEX all the time from now on. If I cant earn it in game then change the way I play the game.