Then you and I don’t differ at all, I don’t think, Arrendis.
I just don’t think your idea (Miz’s idea) is the right one. I don’t think it’s effective. I don’t think it will protect people. I think it will drive a spike in the pattern-- repeatedly, bloodily, as often as it takes. I think your best-case scenario is for everyone to ignore the idea, instead of trying to ignore someone who’s fully willing to do what it takes to draw attention to his cause.
I think you’re wrong. And have been wrong. And continue to be wrong. … Not morally (although I might question the morality of pursuing a futile course of action leading to horrors as the “right thing to do”), but … just wrong.
Maybe I shouldn’t have been involved to the degree I was. There were some dynamics I thought were in play that I plainly misinterpreted; that, I’ll concede-- but that understanding’s a product of hindsight and new information. And maybe some good came of it anyway.
Anyhow, the whole thing’s tangled up, now; I don’t think the old dynamics are at work anymore, definitely not as they were. Everything’s more complicated.
I’m not as good a person as sometimes I want. But in that? … that was me being my best, most hopeful self. I could have paid a heavy price for that. What I got away with was pretty light, considering.
I was thinking what sort of person the Praefecta would want me to be, even if she wouldn’t want me to put myself at risk that way. And so I started on a path, and I walked until I couldn’t.
Others will have to take it from here. Maybe you’ll even be one. But for my part? I’m done.
I don’t regret the part I played. I did what I could with what I had.