That is the point of the game, and in fact many games.
Judging from your post i think you are describing yourself. It takes a little maturity to lose with grace and learn from your mistakes. Maturity you don’t seem to have.
The nature of eve is kill or be killed. It’s less ‘WoW in space’ and more ‘mad max meets blade runner’. The game is designed to allow people to kill you, because they feel like it. And you consented to that the moment you undocked.
Some golden rules to guide you through new eden:
In particular these two:
- You consent to PvP when you click “undock”.
- There is no such thing as “a fair fight” or “an unfair fight”. There’s only a fight. Circumstances are irrelevant.
Welcome to eve online.