That’s not just a one-directional thing, Aria. You’re the one saying you really don’t… care… beyond the effects that events have on your small circle of associates. You’re the one saying you don’t think your voice should carry weight, your judgment trusted, or your values to matter in the wider cluster…
… but you keep using that voice, offering that judgment… and every time, that judgment seems to be ‘I got mine, screw the rest’. You’ve got your comfortable situation. That’s great. But your objection to war is ‘think of all the lives that will be lost’… while ignoring all of the lives lost, mutilated, and maimed in the absence of war. And when you’re asked why we should ignore them… why we should ignore the fact that all of the lives brutalized by the Reclaiming outnumbers the number of people who might be killed by the war to end it… the only real answer that you offer boils down to ‘because it might make my life less comfortable’.
If you’re going to claim to oppose the idea of war because of the human cost… then you have to address the human cost of maintaining the status quo. If your answer to that is ‘it would be inconvenient’, however you dress it up… well… the status quo is inconveniencing a hell of a lot of people, too. How about you go visit one of the breeding facilities and tell one of the women being serially raped there how you’d love to help, but it’s just not convenient right now?
Like I said: It’s not a matter of ‘enemy’… it’s a matter of consistency. The very reason you oppose something… is opposed by the reason you tolerate something else.
That’s pretty telling, Aldrith. I appreciate her viewpoints even as they’re a threat to me and mine. I may not agree with them, but I do appreciate them and want to understand them, rather than only tolerating people who serve my ends.
Which of us was hard-hearted again?
Well, except she’s not. She’s completely ceded that over to Luna. After all, by saying “recognize what you value and how best to serve it with the power you have”, you’re telling her to trust her judgment… which is exactly what she’s expressly said she won’t do, by saying, “I try never to put my sense of her interests before her own sense of them; I don’t trust myself to have that kind of judgment.”
I mean, we’ll completely set aside the issue that a retainer and protector like her owes her employer the best use of her judgment, even where it conflicts and overrides their own in the execution of that protection. She’s been pretty consistent on that, at least: she doesn’t trust her own judgment, and she doesn’t want, or intend, to do so, because she thinks she’s seen where that leads her. She’s expressly rejecting the idea of responsibility.
So it’s all well and good that you’re not judging her harshly… but are you even seeing her? Or are you just projecting onto her an idea of what you think she should be? And if that’s the case… it’s not her you’re judging charitably… it’s your image of her.