You sure it’s what you think and not what your “mistress” thinks? For a good while it has been really hard to see you as a person instead of a sockpuppet for your masters, hence the insinuation of a hand lodged firmly up your ass.
So ask yourself, is it really worth it to follow a cause, that mandates defending mass murder to keep up appearances? Even if, by their own admission, they think it is morally wrong, they won’t go against it. Think about the people you have thrown your lot in with. That is, If you still can think for yourself.