I don’t think you do. I think maybe you did, and that you still desperately wish to… but you seem to need to assert that pretty often, in some form. ‘I trust him’, or ‘there’s a plan’ or ‘it’s all for a truer peace’… it seems to me like you’re a man who’s trying to convince himself that he believes something he just… doesn’t… anymore. But then, deep down, weren’t you a Kador man, originally? I forget.
Just like you’re desperately trying to convince yourself that Sarum’s working for some greater purpose, not just his own ego, his own standing in the jockeying of the court, and his own power. Because no, Aldrith, it’s not about a ‘Minmatar mudhole’. It’s about Sarum being put in charge of a swath of space, and then the Amarr Militia pilots in that area of space acted up. So he has to save face, and do something dramatic, or he’ll be diminished in the personal power politics.
That’s it. It’s all just one man’s egotistical over-reaction to the peons daring to have thoughts of their own, and making it look like he’s weak. And really, the enraged flailing and lashing out? Kinda confirms it.