Honestly, Aria, look back over the history of this board and its predecessors. It’s always been more acceptable and encouraged to talk about battles and bloodshed, wars and campaigns, to hold up this idea that ‘oh, I am a warrior and so totally honorable just ignore that I’m basically the capsuleer equivalent of a kneecapper, hired by organized crime to bust up a union strike’, than it has to wax eloquent about something as simple, natural, and universal as feeling close to another human being and wanting to spend your days as part of their life.
That has nothing to do with my emotional state, and whether or not I’m clinging to some ridiculous idealism in the face of overwhelming evidence. It’s just how things are. Being willing to say it isn’t evidence that I’m somehow heartbroken or ‘something has happened’. The idea that openly saying something we all know is true is somehow a sign of damage… I think that says far more about the people who’d rather dance around such an issue, and the ones who prefer to wallow and revel in their monstrosity and hypocrisy, than it does about the person shrugging their shoulders and refusing to ignore it.