@ OP
I’ll try to explain. Eve is very unique because to a good extent it can be shaped to your liking. You are simply existing in a virtual universe and you can be very powerful and have lots of fun.
Try to look at Eve as your very own movie “The Space Adventures of Blade Anninen” (sounds cool huh?) It could be a story filled with danger, harsh lessons, humble beginnings, and success.
So, the facts are this; Eve online is a game where you will have to organise your own protection for newbros. Be patient, learn the game, and apply what you’ve learned. I think you like the game secretly because you took the time to try it. You have an insight into how players think, you were tricked into going somewhere and got destroyed, learn from that and never do it again. You were also given a gift from another player which should show you some of us are really cool.
Seek out more cool people and make friends, learning the game with friends is fun. Get yourself into a big corp that has reputation, you will enjoy the corp/alliance/comms chat. There are plenty of newbro friendly corps who would be happy to take you on and show you the game. Make sure you at least try this before you leave.